Bringing down those walls.

Some time back, I was going through a bad time. Bad news came coming in nonstop and I was only able to open up to a few people about it. I felt so terrible then and I even cried and fretted about it. After the disappointment, I decided to move on. One trait I have is the ability to move on quick from disappointments. I learnt to accept disappointments in my stride and just pick myself up after unleashing those emotions.

It got me thinking much about things recently. Despite seeming like the open person on my blog, I do actually have a hard time opening up about myself to people. I find it hard to talk about my problems sometimes as I really hate burdening others with my problems. I guess after countless of times playing Aunt Agony to some of my friends, (and boy, some of them are really complain queens. seriously.), I never want to be one of them.

Thus the only way I really unburden myself sometimes, is through my blog and yet sometimes, I feel afraid to do so. I feel vulnerable doing so.

But after a talk with a dear old friend, I think perhaps it’s time to break some walls. I want to be a happier person. As in, really happy, not pretend happy or seemingly happy.

I’m going to remove negativity from my life, be it from naysayers or even toxic friends. I’ll try my best and I’m going to count every blessing I have, be it, minor or anything. And I started doing so today. I count the little blessings and Ihad a rather pleasant day.