another year closer to the grave.

the clock has striked midnight. im offically 23 years old. ill be leaving for bkk in about 12-13 hours and yet i dont feel excited. the deferred exam dates are out. ill be having my exam on the 16th. next friday. considering the fact that i’ll be in bkk till the 13th, doesnt leave me much time to mug.

so i extended my leave for a few more days and it looks like i wont be in the office till after cny.

am feeling stressed about studies. infact so stressed that its affecting my hormones. -_-. i feel like a bloated whale. bah. to me, birthdays are nothing special. just makes me ponder about life.

what have i achieved with my life? i have embarked on my part time studies rather late as compared to my fellow peers and truth to be told, im feeling the strain of studying part time. but i have my priorities straight. the moment i decide studying while working aint working out, ill dump everything in favour for my studies.

my studies comes first, everything else can wait. be it work, family or tiger.

im glad to have some colleagues who are fine with me extending my leave. i had to seek their help to follow up on some ‘projects’ of mine. and yet there are some people who rolled their eyes. like i said, studies come first. im glad to have a kind and understanding boss who is supportive of my study plan and encourages me to go on leave even when i have my doubts about doing so. the sad thing is i calculated ill probably be 25 yrs old by the time i get my degree. sigh.

workwise, in june, ill be turning 2 years old in the company. have i learned anything? lots. i do enjoy my work, being able to plan. i do not have much complains. friends around me can attest to the fact that i hardly complain about work unless im highly stressed. i am lucky to be one of the few who enjoy my job and do not drag myself to work everyday. (unless i partied the night before.) though the pay may be a tad low, i believe building my resume in where i am now will help me more in the long run. and the leave benefits rocks. 21 days. wooooooooo!

familywise, things are pretty the same. much better than last time. though i do wonder how long it’ll last.

lovewise, tiger has finally returned from his studies. and its pretty much a honeymoon period right now. after the emotional rollercoaster previously, im glad to have some stability right now. so far so good. 🙂

friendswise, i honestly admit, i do not allocate much time to them as much as previously with tiger return and the start of my studies. with the lack of time, i tend to choose my friends carefully now.

healthwise, aside from binging due to stress and weird hormones, seems ok. i do hope to be able to shed some fats this year. been meaning to start jogging once again but been procrastinating. i do want to try running a 5km or 10km run this year. but looking at my fat arse, to be able to jog 1km would be a miracle.

it seems like im feeling a tad melancholic and pensive this year. oh well, hope i’ll cheer up tomorrow with the company of my 2 favourite guys: tiger and my best friend, thebeanmaster.

am gonna bring my notes to bkk. hopefully ill be able to revise a bit, get some studying done. i better start packing. meeting tiger in 11 hours time and nothing has been packed. tsk tsk. disorganised me.

to the rest of you guys who had msged, msn-ed and tagged, much love to all you guys. i apologise if i did not replied in a timely fashion.

birthdays just symbolises another year closer to the grave (to me). so love like you have never loved before, eat like you have never eaten before, live life like every day is your last.

and ill shop like its my last day of my life in bangkok. 😉

if i disappeared one day, would you miss me?

♥,
nadnut