had insomnia yesterday…

slept a mere 2 hours then went to school for ndp briefing. been a long time since i had insomnia. call me a pervert but i missed de feeling of dizziness, de bloodshot and dry eyes. hahaha~ been a long time since i had insomnia mah… went to school… was selected to be a lead FA… hmmm…. joined NDP as its my last year in school and i wanna give it my all to all events. then suddenly my good fren mingli called me to let me knoe of job offers…

thanks mingli for de news of job offers! *hugz*

she has already went for interviews for some job…. i then realised tat im left hanging and bumming around as compared to some of my frens who have already achieved a job, a future. tis nasty tot passed thru my mind…

“y am i wasting my time joining events instead of getting a job. these events wun give me cca points. im not earning money. and de onlie time i can start work is after ndp”.

i went thru a period of time when i was so depressed as i feel im not doing anything with my life… a waste of time. im useless.

when suddenly, de answer came to me…

‘coz i feel a sense of achievement doing events. and events is my life. tats why i had run for bsc for 2 years, helped out in countless events… all it matters is tat im happy doing wat i love’

and to those people who tink im stupid. go to hell. stop bringing me down.